SORRY!!!

It's been waaaaaaay too long and I'm sorry. To be honest I just haven't felt there's been much to post about, but this will be my attempt.

I deleted my last blog because I had messed with something in the HTML part... woops!It made everything I posted unreadable. I ended it saying that I was going to try something risky in my love life, and well the risk didn't pan out. Things are fine now, as far as I can tell the damage done was minimal. Each one of these failed attempts at dating I feel one step closer to just quitting the dating scene until I move. Possibly a little over a year till I move and I'm still terrified. I'm still struggling with what to do with my living situation next year before the move. Since I will be moving to Denver alone (unless some miracle changes that) I'm trying to decide if it would be best to live alone. Get used to it before I leave all my friends behind.

Next year's musical theatre oppertunities are amazing and I truely can't wait to see what will happen. RENT is a definite and Bare is still in the works, I'm trying to forget about the former for as long as I can. I think too much about RENT and I'll drive myself crazy wanting to just audition already!

Family life is a confusing topic. There was a time when I felt my family was falling apart while I was watching from the outside. While there is still many things to overcome, it seems to be getting better. My grandmother has begun kimo (or however the hell you spell that) and she actually seems to be happier. I don't know what she's going through but it will at least improve her quality of life for some time. My mom does not believe I will have a grandma this time next year, a though that I'm gonna have to learn to accept. As for now, she's alive and seems to be happier than she has been in sometime. As a family we'll take what we can get.

(random thought of hilarity: Listening to Dan Savages podcast right now made me laugh because he ranted for about 4 minutes about how people need to avoid Centaur fetishes. Evidently the Axe Bodywash commercial is having some very strange effects on people.... wooooow)

But yeah, I'm alive. Have my ups, have my downs. Generally I sit in the middle watching things go by. I'm certainly ready for some positive change in my life. Though I will say, I called it when I said 2009 would be better than its predecessor. Things are a hell of a lot better than they were, and I'm looking forward to see where this year will go!