The song. This time.

When Lee and I ended things I came to find comfort in a song but Kurt Elling called "Time to Say Goodbye". I wrote a blog about it, and that song became the source of my mentality when it comes to heart ache. While the message still resonates with me right now, I didn't find the same comfort in it that I once did.
I've always found music to be one of the most powerful forces in my life. I find a sense of calm in it that I can't find anywhere else. The right combination of chords can set the tone for my day, week, or month. For some reason this song is having a profound effect on me right now. I haven't figured out what it all means to me, but it definitely echoes what I'm feeling.
I get to a place where I'm happy, where the world feels at balance and I feel like I settle in to what my life is at this point. Yet something always comes around to remind me of my struggles. I feel like so much of what I used to find comfort in has been lost, and at times it's all I can think about.
There is the beauty in life that has always been there, I see it frequently, but I forget it's there from time to time and allow myself to be overtaken by the negative.
My last significant breakup was less of a struggle than this one, I didn't lose as much when everything was said and done. So it makes sense that the song that helps me find my way out is less directly positive. The Velvet Goldmine is a source of hope for me. All will be well, just have to let time and life run its course.

p.s. I apologize for yet another seemingly downer blog. I tend to not express negative emotions in my interactions with those around me. My blog offers me an avenue in which to convey the emotions I don't feel comfortable conveying. I am doing well, I just occasionally need a way to let my struggles be known.