Out of mind.

I have neglected my blog for a longer period than I ever have since creating it... woops! Life has been nuts since RENT though and writing a blog never came into my mind as something I should do. But here I am to do what I can while still working. (that's right, I'm blogging at my job)

This blog will be short, and it will probably be a little while before I can post another one as I no longer have a home computer. It finally died... really sucks, but my files will be safe and I'll be getting a Macbook Pro in the weeks to come... can't really be sad about losing my old PC!

Generally I use my blog as a place to get out negative feelings, to put down in writing the things that are getting me down or distracting me from my goals. One of the reasons I haven't posted in a while is because I've been extremely happy as of late. I've been incredibly hesistant ever since Lee and I broke up to apply the title of "boyfriend" to any relationship I formed. I wanted to be sure that the next time I agreed to be in a relationship that it would be healthy and for the right reasons. Anyone who keeps up with me in any capacity knows that I am now dating Gilbert. He and I had been friends for over a year when something clicked for both of us. Because I had known him so well before hand, once we were in a relationship the walls I had built up for so long were quickly torn down. I have found someone who I feel I can share anything with and not be afraid of how he will respond. I am allowed to be myself around him all the time and know that even the weird things he'll embrace as part of who I am, just as I do for him. It's something amazing that I've never really experienced in a relationship. I honestly couldn't be happier with where I am in my love life, this is something special.

I am looking forward to what 2010 will bring my way. I have amazing friends, a spectacular relationship and countless oppertunities to explore my passions placed in my path. I know of several trials that are headed my way as well, and there will be other challenges I don't see coming, but I am ready for whatever life throws at me this year. I feel have the support I need and the personal strength required to conquer the world!