Coasting.

I've been noticing my mind checking out of NM for a while, but it's becoming more intense with each passing day. I've come to the point where I feel there's nothing left for me in NM. Yes, I have amazing friends, and I do not intend to discredit those amazing relationships, but the only thing that I'm honestly still excited about here is Rent. My friends are very much a part of that.
Most days after work, or if it's a weekend the entire day, I just sit in my one bedroom apartment alone. I try to get out and do things. And I do, but it's not been enough to overcome the feeling of being alone, or the feeling that I'm ready for change. I've once again returned to the state of not having someone here for me. That sounds weird. I no longer have someone that I will just randomly call and say "hey, lets go walk in the night air and just enjoy each other's company." My friends are incredible, but for one reason or another the people I confide in aren't anywhere near me, be it emotionally or geographically.

This blog isn't an attack on anyone, nor is it a plea for pity. Just a place for me to put out there what I'm feeling. I'm ready to move. Ready to leave NM behind and start something new elsewhere. I've outstayed my time here.